Wednesday, July 18, 2007

If I Was a Freebird!

So, two nights ago I had this wondeful dream. Really, it was wonderful. It was the first dream, you see, where I was able to fly!!

Some unknown guy with powers gave me the power to fly so that I can carry out some unknown task for him. Kinda freaky huh? I mean...I could've been doing this awful stuff for him without knowing it, just like in the movies!! But I knew I was doing good. Because, one! I never do bad deeds in my dreams (most the times)! And two! I felt like I was doing a good thing, like...say, I was helping a person get something he couldn't reach for in his age or what not, it just made me feel good. And three! Jonathan Lance and Royce kept chasing me around trying to catch me and stop me from doing anything and they were always rude about it...you can't be rude and doing a good thing! Can you? :-D
So, with this awesome power given to me, I was able to change into...guess what? A butterfly!! Pretty pathetic, huh? But the cool thing about my gift is, if I go full speed or something for about ten seconds I change into a sparrow (thankfully nobody shot me), after ten more seconds it was a hawk or something, then it was an eagle, then ten seconds more and I was a huge mix between a huge eagle and some type of hawk. I was pretty happy with the last thing. :-) I never figured out what I was supposed to do exactly though...my brothers kept giving me a hard time with finishing it. But Desi was on my side (reason four!) and as a token of my appreciation I flew her around the city and inbetween cars and what not. Theeeeen I woke up.

Deeper into life (as if a dream where I can finally fly isn't deep enough), I have been thinking about life again. Look at my life...I've got the best family I can wish for (this goes for my relatives as well), wonderful friends who I feel I can trust and talk to, priests all around who are always ready to help out. I've got wonderful pets, I'm easily entertained. Jasmine and Chumley and all sorts of instruments. I've got a great life!! Sure things can go wrong (and they do! They do...) but I can always go to someone to help me out sooner or later. But what I always think, is how much do I deserve this?? I don't think I deserve any of this. None at all. Maybe a glass of water after I helped someone build a house or something, but nothing greater in life. It just goes to show how much God is better than me by about a gajillion x infinity more times. It's like Jonathan said "How can we think we deserve anything from God? Especially Heaven?? One sin is all it takes to completely make us undeserving of anything." And it's true, sure he was talking to the YG about not thinking we should deserve Heaven for barely trying and what not, but those words made me think about life in general. What did I do to deserve all this? Absolutely nothing! The most I can do is (besides rambling on about it, which I've probably already done) is just be grateful with everything I've got for everything I've got and be ready in case (which would probably do some justice, if any) I'm to sacrifice it all for someone or some moral thing...kinda weird ain't it? I don't think I'm putting it into words too well, but I thought I might as well try for a post. :-D I shall end this subject reminding you all to be grateful with what you've got...though times are hard, it's definitely not as hard as things could be. In addition to that, we should definitely pray to those less fortunate than us.

Maybe a question could help this post? What are the saddest and happiest songs you've heard? It doesn't need to be the actual saddest song you can think of, but just one that comes to mind quickly or what not.

Damien

11 comments:

David said...

you are right. we don't deserve any of it. we cannot. we cannot truly pay God back for what He has given us. Grace is freely given and there is no return policy. we can never earn Heaven. but we most certainly can earn hell. it's hard for me to know what to do with it all.

saddest song, probably "Shattered" by Trading Yesterday (David Hodges). happiest, "Blessed Be Your Name" by Tree63.

sHANNON said...

Oh my goodnesss, your dream reminded me of The Magic School Bus! Oh my goodness! :-p
Agreeing with you and David, we really truly don't deserve any of it. Actually none of it. If it wasn't for the Latin Mass, I probably would be taking EVERYthing for granted and not seeing how lucky I am.
Great post Damien. I'm glad your blog isn't dying like mine has been slowly. I'll see if I can keep it breathing a little longer. :-D
Ciao!
~Shan a.k.a --->The Murderer

sHANNON said...

ohh... and as for sad and happy songs...

What A Wonderful World - Louis Armstrong for happiest :-D (out of the top of my head)
And saddest...My Immortal - Evanescense

Kat said...

Yesss! Isn't flying such an awesome experience?? My flying powers never came to me that way, though...I usually only got them when I was in trouble and needed to get away really fast. I'd have to say yours is a cooler way of using it, but what can you do about it? :-p

Thank you so much for writing this! I was in such a depressing mood when I read your post. I had been thinking about...different parts of my life that hadn't turned out too great, partly because of my mistakes, partly because of others, and I started thinking that life just isn't the greatest at times.. Then I read your post and it was like someone had offered me light after wandering around blind in the darkness for awhile! :-) (It was also like running into a brick wall...it hit me THAT hard)

I can't really think of any songs at the moment, though. The only sad song I can think of is "Hurt" by Christina Aguilera... or "In this Diary" by the Ataris (but that's more of a bitter-sweet kind of song...) Or "Tears in Heaven"

Dameo said...

I kinda flew again in this dream...only I was running away from this thing which must've stabbed me in the stomach and head about a hundred times (I felt the pain, but lived! :-D ) and then I think I was somehow catapulted over the high school we live by. I landed in a little kiddie pool...ungracefully, so it definitely wasn't really flying. And even though I stabbed him he wouldn't die! And he was cruel...it was like those guys on Apocalypto, only...he wouldn't die!

I'm glad I could help you out, Kat. I didn't know my post really had that much help to it. But it's good to know that it helps people, whether one or more. :-D David, the only thing we really do know what to do with it all is just strive to do our best to follow God's will...

Happiest Song: Fix You (Coldplay)
Saddest Song: Hello (Evanescence)

Jeeps said...

The saddest classical song voted by the listener's of BBC's Today programme is "Adagio for Strings" by Samuel Barber. Truly THE saddest classical music piece. Happiest...can't think of any. Awesome post, Salisbury (sp).

Dameo said...

That's true...Adagio is just awesome in that sense. We don't have it by Barber, but by Bernstein (the West Side Story guy!). I like to just turn that on the ipod before I fall asleep...it's so moving.

And nobody better say the techno version is better! You know who you are

Jeeps said...

Yeah, I'm watching it on youtube right now...*sniff sniff*.

Original broadcast from the Albert Hall in London September 15 2001. Leonard Slatkin conducts the BBC Orchestra.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lV3SHBFyDZM

Dameo said...

Oh yeah...

Saddest song: Hello (Evanse-however you spell it)

Happiest Song: Different Names for the SAme thing (DCFC), because of the feel of the song...or Fix You (Coldplay). Probably much better ones out there...but I'm supposed to think on top of my head. :-D Oh! That one Bravery song, too! WAAAAY too happy.

I can't say that Adagio is too sad to me...tragic in a sense, yes... but more inspiring now that I think of it.

Dameo said...

Oh!!!! HAHAHAHA!! Gosh, I must be moretired than I thought...right as it was posting I realised I already posted them...they're the same ones though! So it must be true. :-D

sHANNON said...

whoooaaa...

You have to be really, REALLY, tired to post it twice...o_O